28 April 2007
We're giving Travis' cousin Renee a baby shower this afternoon. She is my age. I was looking at all the baby stuff, even smelling the diapers we were using for making the diaper cake. For just a second my heart will pang for another baby, and grieve a little that that part of my life is over. I was certain when I had my tubes tied that I had the three children that I wanted - but my heart would be fully open if God gave me more. The girls and I were talking about that - seems to be like a talk-show around here sometimes with the four of them. I was saying that I'm a bit jealous - babies are so precious - but that I would wake up at 3 am and think, "Gee, I wish I had a wee one to wake me up!" I have reached that place in my life where the next baby in my life with likely be a grandbaby! Best wishes to Renee. I hope that we have a chance to love on her baby a little and get a baby-fix!