19 July 2008

Yes and Amen!

Wow. I saw a link posted on a friend's blog that I had to go and check out. Tammy is a self-described heretic, and one of the most fantastic, thought-provoking, fun-loving, new kind of Jesus freak that I have run into on the blogosphere.
I have been treading water for a long time, wanting to give up and feeling "far" from God in my broken, irritable, depressed and floundering state. I have gained weight, broken out, broken down, contemplated running away, and felt as they say "lower than the belly of a snake". I keep trying to maintain and hold it altogether. I have worried as some would say about my "witness".
Darin Hufford's post at the Free Believer's Network she linked to, titled "Authentic Spirituality"was just what I needed to hear. It was about the smoke and mirrors of our spirituality. The whole post was tremendously affirming of a lot of thoughts I have had over the last several years, but this part leaped off of the page and spoke like a megaphone to my heart:
Being spiritual, in my opinion, is when an individual embraces every facet of their humanity with no apologies, knowing well that their shortcomings are not evidence of God's absence but rather, evidence of life.

Where I am. In the confusion. In the brokenness. In the frustration. In fact, I would go so far as to say that the reality of my present circumstances manifested for others to see, without drawing a veil around it may be in fact a better witness. Things hurt. Life is hard. It is the experience of being human. As Darin describes it, "life on an ass". The picture of Jesus. Not royalty carried around on a pillow, but the hard, bumpy ride of a donkey on unpaved paths and cobblestone sidewalks.
I am blessed with insurmountable humanity.


  1. Wow Jewls, your comment on my writing was better than my writing itself. Seriously. Thanks. I would love to talk with you because I want to change my "Authentic Spirituality" article and add what you said about riding an ass through unpaved roads. Good stuff. I want to be you when I grow up!!!

  2. I appreciate your comments because I am where you are.

  3. Ha! So funny; a minute ago, I came here and skipped right on down to your last post, where I had left off the time before. I didn't even so much as glance at today's. Something made me come back, and read today's (I still gotta catch up on the ones in between!), and lo and behold, there my name was!

    Thanks for your very kind words, Julie!
    I'm just glad you got something out of that link. I know it spoke volumes to me as well. So, glad you were touched by it too!

  4. excellent post. do you know if tammy wants to be referred to as tammy or is she trying to maintain some anonymity with "free spirit" - i was just wondering. i don't want to violate anyone's wishes to maintain anonymity, at the same time i am always wanting to address people by their name if possible.


  5. Amen, sister, Amen!

    I've wallowed in my share of mud. It's all good. God brought me through it. :)


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