Have you ever heard someone pray, and it was as if they knew Jesus was standing right there? Let me tell you something, you haven't heard anything until you've heard Kendra pray. It is as if she knows He is right beside her. And not only is he beside her, a few weeks ago, He came to dwell in her.
It made me cry then and it makes me cry now. Her heart was always so tuned in to the Lord even when she was small. She went through a pretty difficult year when she was 13 and I never feared, for I knew she had loved Him so much that He would be able to do the work necessary to bring her back.
She never really was a baby. She came out of the womb speaking in full sentences. Aside from the baptism, the video was full of family moments. She often got pushed, unintentionally to the side, being the most independent of our children. She has strengths and weaknesses, gifts and challenges, she is feisty and loving. She is ready to bolt like a race horse out of the gates into adult life, and I will be lost. I didn't know I was worth anything until I became her mother. She has changed my life completely and forever. I saw the love of God in her eyes the first moment I held her. My shining star is about to take off and leave me in darkness. A mother's heart grows faint to think of it. I am going to go and have lunch with her during her break at the restaurant where she works. I have decided to grab every minute I can with one of the best people I have ever known as often as I can.
She never really was a baby. She came out of the womb speaking in full sentences. Aside from the baptism, the video was full of family moments. She often got pushed, unintentionally to the side, being the most independent of our children. She has strengths and weaknesses, gifts and challenges, she is feisty and loving. She is ready to bolt like a race horse out of the gates into adult life, and I will be lost. I didn't know I was worth anything until I became her mother. She has changed my life completely and forever. I saw the love of God in her eyes the first moment I held her. My shining star is about to take off and leave me in darkness. A mother's heart grows faint to think of it. I am going to go and have lunch with her during her break at the restaurant where she works. I have decided to grab every minute I can with one of the best people I have ever known as often as I can.
You are so blessed! And I bet she would call you blessed too. :-)
ReplyDeleteHas it been 11 years??? I remember her baptism and no way does it seem like it's been that long. Happy Early B-day Kendra!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post Julie. Makes me tear up to think how fast the time will go- before I know it, my daughter will be 17. Ok, she's only 11 1/2, but I know it is going to go by WAY too fast!
ReplyDeleteSniff, sniff...
ReplyDeletethat was beautiful and so is your family.
Marsha - I think she thinks she is blessed too but I don't know why. There was a huge learning curve in figuring out how to be a good parent without any real examples. She was the one who endured all the testing.
ReplyDeleteDwayne & Jane - it has been 11 years - and yes it DOES fly!
Thank you everyone else - we had lunch together which I waited almost 2 hours for - but she was worth it!
That was beautiful, it really touched me.
ReplyDeleteI was born grown up too and ready to fly free :)
Oh, you had to go and make me cry! Now, I'm gonna go play a game with my kids. To hell with what I was gonna do! :)
ReplyDeleteShe is so beautiful Julie. You are very lucky and so is she.
ReplyDeleteWay to go, Kaitlyn! You cut short Kendra's babyhood. Geesh. :)
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