I'm going to throw caution to the wind and post this celebratory declaration of the one year anniversary of my divorce. This anniversary celebrates a passage of time in which I have not had to suffer verbal, emotional or physical abuse. My children now live in a house where they go to bed every night certain that they won't wake up to violence, rage or outbursts. In the last year nobody has told me that I was fat, clumsy, stupid or a b*tch. In our home, nothing has been thrown, broken, mutilated, or destroyed in a fit of anger. I have not had to duck, hide or passively apologize to neutralize a toxic situation. Nobody has disabled my car to keep me from leaving or made empty promises to manipulate me into staying. Perhaps divorce breaks God's heart, but I can't help but think that this metamorphosis of our family gives Him anything but joy.
A divorce marks the disentanglement of two legally joined parties, but if I'm honest, my heart was disentangled long ago. My life followed slowly, and what a life it is!
Awesome! I am so happy for you. I highly doubt that God wanted you to live like that!
ReplyDeleteIt made my heart happy to read your words. I'm so happy you've found love and peace. Blessings to you.
ReplyDeleteMy divorce-iversary was spent at the Grand Canyon. Who would've thought?
ReplyDeleteJulie,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for all the pain that you went through. God may be broken hearted by your divorce but not because it's the unpardonable sin. It would be because of the how horribly you were treated. God understands rejection and divorce as He Himself is divorced from Israel. "And I saw, when for all the causes whereby backsliding Israel committed adultery I had put her away, and given her a bill of divorce...." Jeremiah 3:8
I'm so blessed you've found joy and happiness with Gary. May God continue to bless your family.